Where Did All of My Inspiration Go?

Its been one of the hot topics I’ve recently come across over the internet and to be fair I totally get the whole “I need a break thing.” It happens to even the best of the best in the business. Okay, now I’m far from celebrity status but even I needed to take a step back and reevaluate some particular events in my life that drew me away from sharing content online. Today I want to share with you a few different aspects in my lifestyle that really lowered my spirit to continue to create content.

I chose to money chase rather than enjoy what I love to do, that is, write! I began to be so consumed about making money within the first few months of blogging. I was trying so hard to fit in that creating content became boring. I suddenly felt like it was more of a way to make ends meet rather than it being an enjoyable way to digitally create content in journal form – which was literally my entire reason to create a blog. I still write in my personal journal, but Blush Pink Rose was another avenue for me to create content I enjoyed which honestly was easier than picking up a pen sometimes.

Secondly, I began to second guess myself and compare my blog to others. Trust me it is not worth the anxiety. So here is a piece of advice – STOP SECOND-GUESSING YOURSELF! It got to a point where I would open my laptop and stare at my computer screen because I had such bad writers’ block that nothing would come to me, literally NOTHING. It was the most frustrating time. The more I tried the more I failed so I took a break. I had to come to terms with my thought process which unfortunately affected my work.

My next point stemmed from A LOT of PR fails, ambassador fails, unpaid gigs, the list goes on. As a brand new blogger, the struggle is real when you try to get your name out in the world of business. But nobody really prepares you for how difficult it is as a new blogger seeking work especially paid work. You are up against some of the best influencers and bloggers who have been creating content for years (100K+ followers). However, you should never think that blogging is a way to make money, especially during your first year! I learned this the hard way. Instead be yourself and the work will come – I promise.

I was given a few opportunities to be an ambassador for some small companies of which okay they give you a code, cool, cool but it suddenly became my responsibility to purchase their items out of pocket – there is no free clothes or products honey! I remember saying to myself, “I didn’t sign up for this, I thought I got free products?” I can’t believe I am typing the word LOL on my blog but that was my naive self believing that just because I have a “title” meant I received free products. Yeah, okay, who was I kidding? My fairytale imagination got me into a bit of a state.

I just want to highlight that as a new blogger these things were quite an eye-opener for me. I didn’t quite understand how much work was required before landing my first gig but even then that is not certain either. I sound a bit silly, I know, but hey ya girl really didn’t think it would become an expensive hobby. So I was sort of defeated I guess when companies would shut me down or comment on the way I look, my style, even to the point where I literally had little to no income to purchase clothes so I was somewhat embarrassed.

The last point I want to share is how the role of social media played a contributing factor to my lack of inspiration. I never really realized how technology can influence a person way of thinking. I needed to detox from the world, get my thoughts together and take a much needed social media break. I became so unmotivated and self-conscious of my pictures, the way my body looked, my smile etc – I felt like taking photos was just stupid. So you can only imagine my build-up of frustration.

NO CONTENT + NO PICTURES = NO CONTENT AT ALL!

Social media is such an important tool for connecting with others, I just think if we could all be friends the world would be a better place. Quit judging people! There I said it. Through all the highs and lows I am proud of my accomplishments thus far. I celebrate 1 one year as a blogger next month and I cannot wait to celebrate it with you all!

Thank you for reading and please leave me a comment – I look forward to your responses.

Miss Rose

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4 thoughts on “Where Did All of My Inspiration Go?

  1. Latisha P says:

    Awesome blog my friend! Honesty is so important. Sometimes just expressing how you truly feel will help you overcome writer’s block. I always just start writing or typing, walk away, then come back later and continue. It takes time and a clear mindset. Congrats on almost reaching your 1st year blogging anniversary!

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  2. lifewithveexo says:

    I just went through something similiar! Maybe this feeling of “I need a break” is a right of passage for us new bloggers because I am just now gearing up to relaunch my own blog and go back to being consistent again from taking almost 2 months off! I think what got to me was in order to be successful the amount of time and thought you have to put into your content felt like a second job for me, one that I wasn’t getting paid for, so it started to stress me out! But like you, I just want to get back to the love of it all, and worry about the “business” aspect of it later ! Great insight in your post, thank you for sharing!

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    • blushpinkrose says:

      Exactly! Well, it looks like the break did you some good – I am so happy for you. I think the business side will come in due time. I don’t think pushing ourselves beyond what we are capable of doing is healthy hence why I needed that break too. #balance I appreciate your comment and thank you so much for supporting me. You are so kind xo *hugs*

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